There are moments in this pinball life, as we bounce from buzzer to bell, lights flashing and flippers flipping, when suddenly a hush falls over it all. We see ourselves in slow motion. A wind blows, a curtain flutters aside, and we glimpse for an instant an otherness we rarely see, locked as we are in this tilted temporal arcade.
I had one of those moments this morning. I wouldn’t say my arm was in pain so much as it was making its presence known in a dull ache. Not over emoting, but refusing to step offstage. With all the horrific suffering in the world, it’s a very small thing, but it’s currently a prominent bumper in my personal pinball machine. I was thinking about how God has been using this minor annoyance to center my focus on Him and His plans. It has become a source of real discipline, and God is meeting me in the obedience. Humbled by the wonder of His ways, I paused to pray. “Thank you for pressing me into a corner, Lord. May Your will be done.”
As though following a cosmic play script, I then flipped to today’s reading in Streams in the Desert and read these words: “The literal translation of this verse (2 Corinthians 12:10) adds a startling emphasis to it, allowing it to speak for itself with power we have probably never realized. It is as follows: ‘Therefore I take pleasure in being without strength, being insulted, experiencing emergencies, and being chased and forced into a corner for Christ sake, for when I am without strength, I am dynamite.'”
Some may say it was just a coincidence–that God had no part in scripting events to have me pray in words He would immediately confirm. Some may say that, but not me. As the curtain falls again, the hush is lifted, the flippers resume their flipping and the buzzers their buzzing, I have only one thing to say.
I am dynamite.
Darn right you’re dynamite. Praying that your pain lessens and that you’ll have continued company in that corner.
Thank you, sir!
So sorry about your pain, Jeanne, but wow, that was good!
Thanks, Patricia. And thanks for sharing Parting the Waters with your friend. I’m honored!
I’ll say that was good – as I sit here with my neck aching, I have a whole new appreciation for it.
Patricia [Pollywog Creek] recently sent me your book – I read it in one sitting. I want to thank you for being so obedient, for sharing your journey, and blessing my socks off.
You are so welcome, Allie. Nice to meet you, and thanks so much for your kind words. It’s hard to appreciate pain, but more and more I see how God uses it to bring me His best gifts. I pray He touches your neck with relief and continues to bless your socks off in countless ways.
I’m praying for your pain, but rejoicing in the gentle way God sends His presence.
Jeanne,
You find beauty , it finds you. You and grace , how you offer it, blessing others.
I’ve been having some minor back and hip stuff, nothing really, but it’s forcing me to give up my little gardening gig . And every day I wait to see how this may actually be exactly what He has planned. Even these little unexpected setbacks can open doors or force us to peek through the cracks.
love to you,
hope for the best always.
(you’re almost a Grandma, you must just be over the moon:) )
Thanks, Deb. I always love the way you say things, even when you’re saying things about the way I say things.
FYI, the moon looks amazing from the other side.
Love to you, too.
Jeanne,
That was absolutely beautiful and so powerful, as well. I was diagnosed with young onset Parksinson’s disease 6 years ago and it can be a pain in the neck (quite literally, come to think of it!) 🙂 Your words hit a definite chord for me and I have been a grandma for two wonderful years now it will, to use the phrase above, knock your socks off!!! You are going to love it with a capital ‘L’!!! Praying all goes well.
oh – i was going to ask – do you mind if i post the article from at parkinson’s site – http://www.parkinsonsjourney.com – for encouragement to others? i will link back to yours with it.
I’d be honored for you to share this post on the Parkinson’s site, Sherri. I pray God’s abundant grace on your journey.
My socks are ready! 🙂